Mixed Feelings

When my current employer finally got around to speaking with me yesterday about my resignation letter, he seemed extremely sad.

It was painful.

I can only speculate as to why he responded so...

We were to speak about it today, but he never stopped by my desk...

It brings up questions of how much I read into things, let emotions cloud, etc.

I know I did.

At the same time...

I asked him before Christmas for a raise.

I told him back in August I wanted my own project.

The big name project went as it should, to Superman.
He wants to specialise in hospitality, specifically golf club buildings.
I was told I would be given it, but I am covered up helping Senior Architect.

The place I am going sounds like a sweat shop, but I am used to working a great number of projects in a year.

Yes, there ARE good things about the current office to go along with the bad.

Z is happy and relieved that I have switched.
It should be exciting work.

I want to do the whole thing.
Site plans to building design to interiors to consulting to working with clients to construction administration field work.

I won't have the luxury of traveling out of state for projects on the company dime.
I won't get to see the openning of the Navy project and how it came out.
(But then I was supposed to have gone out during framing to see my wall sections and it never happened.

That could be a theme for this office.
Promised but "never happened".

Six month reviews.
Never happend.

Comp time for over time.
I had to take it or it would have never happened.

My own projects.
Never happened.

The ability to do some design work.
Never happened.

sigh...

Anyway.

Mixed feelings.

What's that syndrome where the
kidnapped person identifies with the kidnappers?

Upwards and onwards!

From bunny bed central,

Happy Valentines Y'all!

time to test the goods!