Clarity of mind

Amazing how clear one's mind and emotions become when one accepts reality for what it is.
Herpes.
Love.
Money.
Anger.
Someone who isn't interested in you. And those who are.

Another New Year's Stag....

Gotta go!

End of the year...

One more has come and gone...

Zelda Pinwheel was delightful!
She stopped by and I spent a pleasant day showing her the town.
Weather couldn't have been any better, and it was December at that!
We did the Nasher,
Chuy's,
the DMA,
and of course
Snuffer's.
We also got in a little shopping.
All before she had to go home.

Nice putting a face and person with the name!
(She is much cuter in person. Great eyes! And I must say, the "girls" were looking good as well! *snicker*)
Just doing my part for a fellow blogger!!! (helps that she' s a Texan by birth!)
She brought along a nice gift as well.

And no, we didn't make it to the gay bar! (there is always next time)

(Nice change of pace from three years ago when on the same date,
my mother died.)
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ABC News named us, bloggers, as one of it's "Person's of the Year". Of course they were refering to the bloggers who made political statements, overthrew politicians, and made large corporate news companies wake up and pay attention to the individual with something important to say.
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Now it's back to the old grind...
ahem..

Work starts back up Monday. Or should I say, starts up new? Since it is a "new" year.

Always struck me funny that.

Change a number at the end of the date and it's "new". I suppose it's all a part of conditioning. Get you to believe that one day from the last is a complete "year" away and you can sell someone anything!
"New" car anyone?
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Interesting blog Zelda told me about.
"A taste of the good wife".
She is a horny stay at home wife who writes some very nice erotica. (The Good Wife, not Zelda.)(.Though she does resemble some of that statement). They are well paced, descriptive enough for the guys, and revolve around the woman and her passion.

In her stories,
the lovers,
er,
come together,
as in most erotica.
But unlike my reality,
limited as it is,
all the body parts fit easily and perfectly together
the first time.
And everything *ahem* works like God intended.

I guess I miss the giggling
and laughter
and some
frustration,
of making a new lover (see "limitted" above).

The other women I have... uh...
snuggled with,
yeah,
snuggled with,
(this aims to be a family safe blog you know!!)
involved large "happy feelings" that seem to get lost in standard porn.
(guess it helps if you like/know your partner!)
Even in the good films, it all works on cue.
(And what's up with the cum scenes?
Like really I CARE to watch a guy orgasm?! I can see that any day of the week! Let's see the woman's response!!!)

Kind of like death scenes. (Hmm. the "little death")
"Rolling! Action! 'gasp, cough, cough, I.... I..... loovveee youuuuu, [die]', Okay! Cut! and Print!)
Doesn't work so nice and neatly in reality.
But I guess the snikering, "am I in?"
(very obvious from her reaction,
ah, if one pays (or if one *can* pay) attention)
and "opps!"
are "too personal" for the masses.
That's not really what Porn is for now is it?
"I want mine! I want it NOW! So get to the point!!" Must be why I prefer authentic amateur work.
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My Med Dr. has refered me to a specialist for my HSV2. Switched to valacyclovir (Valtrex, modified acyclovir anti viral. The phamacuticals don't actually spend the large sums they claim, they just take an old successful drug that is about to go off patent, tweak it a little, patent that, and rake in the $$$$$$$. "AARP" has a great article about where the research comes from and where the money goes. Most of the new drugs are developed at Publically Funded, Tax Payer Expence Grant Monies, at American Universities, which are paid fractions of a cent on the dollor for their work. I'll have to dig up that article and post it, with permission of course!)
Give credit where credit is due!
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Recent tests have shown anti viral properties on Cranberries and broccoli. One test the cells were 99.99% protected (the broccoli). Found at http://my.webmd.com/content/Article/73/88989.htm The other can be found at http://my.webmd.com/content/Article/95/103387.htm

Happy "New Year" y'all.

See you later Zelda!

Samuel Barber

Back in college I was lent a cd by a friend.

On it was a piece by Samuel Barber, "Adagio for Strings".
At the time, Dodge had a car out called the Gio. I pictured Sam the barber driving in his Dodge Gio.

The piece is a lament. At one point it builds and builds in an emotial cry "WHY!? " with the violins, then the cellos *sigh*. You'll know it when it gets there...

Gives me goose bumps everytime and brings me to tears.

It helps if you have lost someone close, as I have.

Check it out sometime...

it's q u i t e a ride.

vent!

The new firm I'm with is an Architectural/Interiors firm.
Further more it's a husband-wife team.
This could be a good thing

I am begining to see the warts and dirty laundry.
I just want to work there, not make it my life.
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PBS has a special where they compare the U.S. comercial system to other methods of living life.
In one experieriment, two children were given a checker board and one checker, placed in the middle. They were then told if they could get it to the opposite side of the board in so many turns, the "winner" would get a piece of candy. Each child would have one move before the other had their turn.

The first two children got excited, very animated and would have never gotten the candy, no matter how long the game lasted. They blocked each other every time and the game was a stale mate.

The second set of children worked together to move the piece first to one side of the board, and then to the other. They expressed bordom, disinterest. They finished the game when there was no candy left.

The former were American children,

the later,

Mexican.

What's the goal?

Who's better off?!?
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In the typical situation, the Interiors is hired by the Architect.

The boss is in charge of the Architectural department. His wife, interiors; though his first love is also interiors.
Which means...

the arch department is the red headed step child.

Did I mention it is also the main income stream?

It's a woman thing.
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My brother has done the same thing in his life.
Professed to love a women so much that he'd marry her, make a child with her, and then divorce her. Only to marry a new woman who feels threatened by the child.
The new wife f*cks him, and at the same time, emasculates him. To such an extent that he stands by and lets the new wife sacrifice the child.

That sort of thing was supposed to have gone out of fashion in Mose's time.

It's a woman and man thing.
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The head project Architect just spent the last four months out of state working 4 days a week on the project.
He was also incharge of the latest job, the one I'm on.

We, the firm, are charging the client, per the contract, for that over time.

I worry about someday being put in the possition where my personal time, ie, evenings and weekends, will be used by "the company", where I will be making the boss rich at my expense... If I wanted to do that, I'd work for myself.
It's good information. I can make the appropriate contractual negotiations with the boss before I'm placed in that role. Right before I'm placed in that role.

The afore mentioned head arch has a personality clash with the head of interiors... I'm being triangulated. Granted, the arch is trying to insulate me, but I come from a back ground where if you have a gripe, you share it, resolve it, and move on. This head butting has me thinking about my resume again...

The last office in which I worked where this happened was a "profit for the bosses, screw the employees".

I may not be sophisticated enough to want to tip toe and *handle* (read that "manipulate") the bosses as the other employees do.

Get it out in the open, have it out, deal with it, resolve it, and move on!!

Now that's a man thing.